Self Torture vs World Peace
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“Happy New Year!”
“Has it been?”
Too many times this past week
To delve into that which one cannot control
To self-flagellate with ICE
Venezuela
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Chemo brain vs Menopause
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I walked into the bathroom for a reason. And that reason was a good reason. I was organizing my pills in the kitchen, did I come in here for a new bottle of something? Which bottle would that be?
I walk back to the kitchen and delve back into pill sorting, allocating, counting... Oh yes! I need more AlgaeCal Plus* - back I go.
As I walk I say the name of the supplement in my head. AlgaeCal Plus. AlgaeCal Plus. AlgaeCal Plus.
Read MoreLetter to my Children: Hanging the Cheerleading Wall, Again
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Dearest Beloveds,
The older I get the more it feels as though life is both a carousel and a huge onion being unpeeled.
We have the yearly carousel: holidays, birthdays, seasons. We plant seeds for winter greenery. Our bees swarm in June. Every year we split and stack and move firewood to burn in the woodstove.
We have the daily carousel. Once Baba said to me plaintively when he was in the throes of dementia, “I thought we just DID the dishes! We need to do them AGAIN?!”
“Yup Dad, every day… sometimes three times a day.”
“Oh.”
And we have the carousel of psychological and spiritual challenges.
Read MoreThank you Joe Dispenza
/As I have mentioned in the past, I am a big fan of when all of the fingers I am called to are pointing to the same moon. This spring Rob Wergin’s transmission shared this:
Read MoreLife itself can be challenging, and we keep carrying all of this luggage. All of these bags full of past habits and memories and things like that that are triggering us. Life goes in cycles and if we don’t clear these blockages they get bigger for the next cycle and the next cycle.
Grounding into our Mother
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About 14 years ago I purchased a “grounding sheet” for us to use to connect to the frequency of the earth. We used it until the silver fibers fell apart from the cloth and then life moved on. At the time, there was one place I could find on the internet that sold such things - and I am sure it was listed on QuackWatch.
Now you can purchase grounding bedsheets on Amazon. There are many many choices. Some of the companies also want to sell you red lights and infrared saunas. In other words, it is rabbit hole. You can purchase grounding shoes - which might augment your grounding efforts if you cannot walk around for 10-15 minutes a day barefoot.
Read MoreGarden Party with a Purpose
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“The dance party was really great. When is the next one?”
“When do you want to host one?”
Ahhhh, not quite what I meant. But I can’t pretend that doing something useful didn’t cross my mind. “I don’t think we are up for a dance party - but a garden party to honor what is happening in Uganda - that sounds like fun.”
Read MoreSleeping Nestled In Prayers
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One of the fun things about being an adult - I am “allowed” to write on my bedroom walls. Wall decor is entirely my choice. And any costs associated with repair, repainting, etc are for me to bear.
Last fall I was repeating to myself over and over certain prayers from Rob Wergin. So much so, I decided to record then on my bedroom walls.
The aim was to have a constant drip of attention/awareness on those thoughts.
Read MoreGive World Peace a Hop
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I started practicing Transcendental Meditation in 2007. Over the years I have more or less consistent in my twice a day practice depending on hospital doings and the age of my children.
When I received my mantra I also learned about the TM-Sidhi program. It is the pinnacle of a series of advanced TM techniques - culminating in the practitioners being able to do yogic flying. A whole group of Sidhas flying together has been proved to increase coherence for the society at large.* This coherence creating effect is called the Maharishi Effect.
So it is a two-fer. I get to replug myself daily, swim in the world of Pure Consciousness, and do yogic flying. Secondly, if I do my program with a group - we are creating peace for everyone around us.
Read MoreLetter to my children: Doing what's expected
/Dearest Beloveds,
In so many ways is life both AND. Your Momma is a rebel AND she is scared by not following the rules - especially medical rules and expectations. Both And.
The first time I did not do what was expected of me from the Western Medical Model was when I choose to go to Mexico for treatment.* 15 years ago I spent weeks feeling nauseous and untethered about making the decision.
Read MoreGnostic encomium for the Mary Magdalene Revealed Retreat
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Here is my rooftop shout for the world to hear my encomium* for the Mary Magdalene Revealed Retreat held by the glorious Meggan Watterson. Hear me full body shouting like I did the night I merged with God.
As I have mentioned before, it makes me super happy when all of the fingers I am exploring are pointing to the same moon. Though, as I write this, I realize it is true for everyone. We all seek out that which agrees with our beliefs and create self-reinforcing loops to make ourselves feel validated. My huge ballast on this finger pointing to The Good as inside of us, as opposed to external to us, is from my own experience (see the merging above). So I am going to speak from that place, as a Gnostic.**
Read MoreMy Princess Tower writing retreat time
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When I made myself the list of what I wanted with me in my rebirthing space I did not anticipate several things. I did not realize I would feel so grateful and energized to be on my own schedule, to not be in charge of chores, or schedules, or so completely and utterly thrilled to write.
I have been in my Princess Tower for five days.
Read MoreAdieu my Bone Marrow, A Dieu
/Adieu my dearest bone marrow. Go with God. My beautiful marrow that made my blood all of these 45 years. Carrying oxygen, carrying back CO2, finding cuts and providing scabs, regulating my temperature, bringing blood sugar so I can see again when I am blind with hunger, all of it - I am so grateful for all you have done for me. Thank you - you can rest now.
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